I think I am finally getting homesick for Idaho or extended family or something. The move across the country is finally hitting me. Slowly hitting me. I haven't sat down and cried about it, but I can feel the tears beginning to form if I start thinking about it.
I haven't been sad at all since we moved here. I have loved Virginia and we know we are supposed to be here, for whatever reason. But it dawned on me yesterday when I typed our new address to a friend, I suddenly realized I may never step into her home again and she in mine. I suddenly realized how extremely far away we were from old friends and family. (Ok, the tears are coming now, maybe I should stop typing).
And again today the realization came when we were having dinner. We had pot roast and I suddenly had the desire to have a Sunday dinner with my Aunt and her family and it hit me again that that wasn't going to happen any time soon.
Maybe it is the season that is bringing the understanding of our eastern location to heart. The stores are quickly filling with holiday cheer. I always get homesick for family in California this time of year anyway. I usually start plotting our next trip to CA but now I don't know when that could be. Now I just have to hope family will come out here and visit, since the cost is far too great, with 3 kids, to make it out there.
Maybe it is the rain that has brought this depression on. I realized as I rushed into Walmart seeking shelter from the rain and the wind that I will miss the snow. The cold, I won't miss at all. But the snow I will miss. I would much rather have snow then rain.
Whatever brought on the sadness, I hope it will dissolve soon. We close on the house this week. Maybe with packing, unpacking, and settling in, the homesickness for family and old friends will be minimized again. And just hopefully I can make it through the holiday season without it resurfacing. Just Maybe.
We miss you.
I haven't been sad at all since we moved here. I have loved Virginia and we know we are supposed to be here, for whatever reason. But it dawned on me yesterday when I typed our new address to a friend, I suddenly realized I may never step into her home again and she in mine. I suddenly realized how extremely far away we were from old friends and family. (Ok, the tears are coming now, maybe I should stop typing).
And again today the realization came when we were having dinner. We had pot roast and I suddenly had the desire to have a Sunday dinner with my Aunt and her family and it hit me again that that wasn't going to happen any time soon.
Maybe it is the season that is bringing the understanding of our eastern location to heart. The stores are quickly filling with holiday cheer. I always get homesick for family in California this time of year anyway. I usually start plotting our next trip to CA but now I don't know when that could be. Now I just have to hope family will come out here and visit, since the cost is far too great, with 3 kids, to make it out there.
Maybe it is the rain that has brought this depression on. I realized as I rushed into Walmart seeking shelter from the rain and the wind that I will miss the snow. The cold, I won't miss at all. But the snow I will miss. I would much rather have snow then rain.
Whatever brought on the sadness, I hope it will dissolve soon. We close on the house this week. Maybe with packing, unpacking, and settling in, the homesickness for family and old friends will be minimized again. And just hopefully I can make it through the holiday season without it resurfacing. Just Maybe.
We miss you.
10 comments:
I'm sorry you're feeling sad :( I'm sure it is the holidays coming up that's making it harder too.
You'll make some amazing friends soon enough. thinking of you.
I'm so sorry! I've been amazed at how strong & positive you've been through all of it. I hope your family can make it out to visit you! Ben & I will be in Memphis in January - I know that's still far away though. Good luck to you! You're definitely missed here too.
It is hard to be away from family and I am sorry that it is hitting you really hard right now. Be thankful for your 3 sweet children that you have with you and your supportive husband. We miss you here in California too. I hope that your new house brings you a lot of excitement and fun new memories!
Jen, I know how you feel. I'm sorry you are feeling sad. We miss you and I know your family misses you too. Aren't blogging, emails, and telephones wonderful things? But it's hard to be so far away. I know you will have great times in your new home with your family and I'm sure you will get visits from your parents. Give it a year and you will feel a lot better as you start making friends in your new ward and neighborhood. Love you!
oh Jennifer it makes me so sad to read your post! I'm so sorry you are feeling homesick. I wish I had a remedie. Home sickness really can feel like a sickness. I have really struggled with it, especially when we were in Rexburg lol as it is so completely different and cut off from the UK. It's so miserable. I hate that it never really goes away but I have found trying to make my home happy and get involved where I am builds a new life and new memories and the sickness and aching inside does ease. It is so hard I really feel for you. It is such an unsettling transition between leaving a home and making a home all over again. I hope you find some good friends who will become a support group for you and that you feel support from your Ward. I hope it is a little consolation that all your blog followers have followed you from Idaho to Virginia and we understand what you are going through and are thinking of you. We love your family. I hope you feel a little better soon!
Oh, Jen. I'm so sorry! We miss you too. And, yes I have felt how much farther that VA is than ID. Your friends are right though. You will make a new life and your new home will help to give you a sense of belonging. AND I WILL BE OUT TO SEE YOU! I miss you all more than you know. It's tough to know you won't be here this Christmas, but now you can really start your own traditions. Come up with some things to do with the kids. Love you! I'm sure your parents will be out soon too.
Ohhhhh- I'm sorry you were feeling blue and we SOOO miss you too.
:0( Thank heavens for the computer!!! I enjoy seeing and reading your blog even if I don't always have the time to comment. Jen, your home is absolutely beautiful. What wonderful memories you will create there!! Keep posting pictures- the kids love to see R.J., Savannah and Zach too!!! We love you!!!!
So sorry!! I know how it feels and althought it doesn't go away completely, things start to get a bit better as time passes. We haven't been out to Idaho in over 2 years...it's ridiculous! But, that's when you rely on your ward family and the far and in-between visits from your relatives.
Good luck in your new home!! So excited for you..need your new address!
luz and I will definetly be coming to visit you sometime soon. love you guys and miss you alot
I'm so sorry! We DO miss you so much too! Like you said, you're obviously supposed to be there for a reason. Everything worked out so well. Keep your chin up, and keep smiling. Know that we are loving you from a distance!! {{{HUGS}}}}
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